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[November 05 2009] |
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so today I was attempting to write my college essay. I got some crap down but.. it wasn't really how I wanted to put it all. I'm just afraid the college admissions people will read it and think I'm some type of idiot and deny me... last night I was really stressing college, I was questioning all of the decisions I made in high school, the major I've chose (Creative Writing) and more. but I realized, I really can do anything I want too. I don't have as many restrictions as I think holding me back. I've got the confidence and the drive. I can do this.
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| you, are, the only exception. |
[November 04 2009] |
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it's nights like this, when we just lay down, holding each other, that make me feel like things are okay. I don't have to think about anything else. all I think about is how much I love you and how crazy I might be going from everything else going on in my life if you weren't there to tell me to calm down or relax or not to worry. you really are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I hope you don't go away. I need you.
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| newton's first law |
[November 02 2009] |
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when something starts going, it doesn't want to stop. it's a matter of inertia, physics. so why would I ever want to stop feeling this way? I've already started.
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| party. |
[October 31 2009] |
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last night I had my birthday party. first off all, I just want to say thanks to the people who came and thank you for the presents, but... (and yes, there is a but) I just feel like we spent too much money on a party that wasn't worth it. I guess it's my fault because I assumed some people were coming, who didn't. but, only about 2 or 3 people actually told me whether they could/could not come. and it's not my fault some people don't understand what RSVP means... honestly, it has nothing to do with the presents or who came, because I actually got a good amount of money and very thoughtful gifts. I'm just upset because I feel like my mom spent soo much money and time and worked so hard for a party that wasn't exactly worth it... and we don't have the money to waste on things like that. I don't think everyone realizes how much work actually goes into my parties, but they might, I just don't know it. I guess the only thing that really bothers me most is my mom spent so much on food and little touches and we're in a really rough spot right now. I wish I had stopped her from doing all of that, but there's no going back now, it's done and over with. I can't say whether or not I'll have much of a party next year, mainly because everyone's going off to college, who knows who I'll even be in touch with, but as of right now, I'm not planning on it. but I want the people to know who came, that I'm happy they did and for everything.
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[October 29 2009] |
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I have such unnecessary trust issues. I guess it makes sense that I do, but I think it's dumb at the same time. either way, it just ends up making me look like the idiot. that's one of the worst feelings in the world for me, feeling like a fool.
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| she's got you high & you don't even know yet |
[October 29 2009] |
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I am a super big pile of crazy mumbo jumbo innuendo? blickle blaggle gobble dee gook. basically, I'm just crazy. I don't know why I put the word innuendo in there, it shouldn't be there, but it was the first word that came to me after "jumbo." I carved pumpkins yesterday, it was fun. I'll post a picture of my pumpkin soon. I'm reading Through the Looking Glass & What Alice Found There. I finished Alice's Adventure's in Wonderland yesterday. now that I'm reading the books, I actually feel like a true fan. lately, I've been very consumed with my birthday party/halloween plans and my advanced photography class. applying for colleges is freaking me out. there's so much I am capable of doing with my life. it's all starting to blow my mind.
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